My Big Night...

It is amazing how you can feel so different after such a strange event in your life. If you have not been listening to what I have been doing then let me tell you the background. Over the past week and a half I have been heavily involved in the issues and organization around forming a political debate. Well tonight was the night. I paced the halls, I fidgeted and I used the people around me and engaged them in conversation. Let me say that I am not a shy person. But, I have confidence issues. I always want to do a good job, and when people look at me to do a good job I get nervous. Not about the job, but about screwing up. I am not a suit and tie man, I am not the most politically know ledged person and I am not the most intuitive person when it comes to news. I have been blind to the whole Olympics event until recently. But it got done and I only messed up once. Which is good for me, and well I did not curse at all. I tend to mumble curses when I start messing up. I feel good though. I did it.

The issues though I felt were not said properly. I feel that they did not answer the questions the right way. Hell, most of the questions were probably over their head. I know my first question was from out of left field. The very first public question was “do you believe in god?” Now that was not a question one would expect to be asked first. I think it was a shocker to some.

On a side note though, being in a suit was strange. This one girl, Kerri Carins commented that I looked good. Now… yeah, yeah, she is pretty, but I know we are just friends and she does not think of me more than so. But it really meant something, a lot of people commented I looked good. (and different) After all when pretty girls say you look good, then you really need to listen and NOT take it to a level of egotism, but take it to a level where it will HELP your self confidence which was literally at an all time high.

I really felt confident in the suit and I now know why it is called the power suit. Because it makes you feel older and in charge. Several people said I did a good job (but did I is the real question left up to other people.) All I know is I felt different. I looked different, and I felt really like someone I have never been before.

My only regret is that I wish I could get more questions out to the people. They deserved to have their voice heard and I will make damn well sure that each party member responds to the website.

I feel really good about myself, and I really mean that.