Title: Forever

(Writer’s Note: I wrote this to give balance to some of the poems I have written)

You were the sunshine and the moon,
You are my heart and soul,
I see passion in your eyes,
Why is this a big surprise,
There was a time I could not say it,
But now I am inside your arms,
I just want you to know,
I tried to tell it everyday,
But this life is a crazy place,
And I just want to tell you,
How much I loved you,

Of all the times we shared by each other’s side,
Of all the times we were in each others arms,
I thought of how much I loved you,
And exactly how I would tell you,
Each and everyday we spend together,
Makes me love you even more,
It is hard to be even apart from you,
But there is one thing I want you to know,

Each new day we face it together,
Through the pain and the hurt,
I will stay in your arms,
And I never thought a day would come,
When I would leave you,
And I hope that day never comes,

I want to spend my life with you,
There is this something I want to say to you,
So look into my eyes as I hold you close by my side,
There is something I want to say to you,
And that is I love you and by your side will I stay always.

Title: The Day my Heart Died

(Writer’s Note: I Wrote this back in wait… wait… 2001 or so. It was written after “freedom”. Freedom was the celebration of love for Erin Belanger. “The Day my Heart Died” was the ending note of our relationship. It would seem she was the first and last real relationship I have ever had. We actually did a lot together. She was so different from me in all aspects. I guess you could say, “We Balanced Each Other Out”. I really like that phrase btw. It was awkward when we saw each other after this when she came back from university for the winter break. She is one of two people who if ever were to come back in my life and asked me to marry them I would without thinking.)


My life is down,
I was up at one point,
But now I am drowning,
She was my life,
Changed my view,
But now they are back,
I was warm at one point,
I was not cold and heartless,
She picked me up when I was down,
She brought a smile from me when there was only a frown,
She said she loved me,
I remember lying together watching tv,
I remember late nights talking,
Going to the movies,
Walking hand in hand,
Talking together and making some plans,
I treated you right,
And never put up a fight,
Sat under a starry cold might,
I gave my jacket for you to stay warm,
I only came when you called,
I put aside my life for you,
You said that you loved me,
It was all a lie,
Alone I was,
Neglected and ignored,
Ruining a think I thought was for sure,
Old habits picked up,
I showed my heart,
And all I got was a door,
We’re no more,
I would have shed a tear,
But I couldn’t care,
Never again will I be hurt,
Alone forever if I must be,
Alone without you I will be,
Cold and empty,
But wanting it that way,
I will admit simply,
You were the closest to me at the time,
I will miss you,
And I am glad you were mine.

Title: Just Friends

(Writer’s note: You can all believe me or not this is from 1997. If I am not mistaken it was about a girl from Baskin Robins who I really liked at the time. The only reason I started talking to her was because Marzden pushed me into it. He was always the type of person to push me in a relationship. I was always Mr. Chicken Shit and could never get the courage, still can’t, to even ask a girl on a date.)

When I look at you,
I only smile,
You worry for me and possibly care,
But I truly care for you,
Perhaps even you love,
I am not sure if it’s real,
I am not sure of many things,
Special you are to me,
Why won’t you tell me?
Are you scared?
Or do you not care?
I might want a relationship,
But friends we will remain,
We are too good at that I guess.

Title: Zero Hope

A razor blade,
A knife,
A pin
My pain and strife,
Depression and hatred,
My lack of vision to see the truths in my life,
A lonely bed,
A world without a wife,
Heartfelt expressions of sincere loneliness,
Lone in an urban jungle amongst the urban wildlife,
Suicidal tendencies thoughts and feelings,
Feeling insignificant like a common lowlife,
Alone in dark and distance rooms,
With only a razor blade
A knife
A pin,
My pain and strife,
Feelings of Depression and hatred,
And a unparallel wish to end my life.

Title: Confessions

A confession and a whisper,
Racing thoughts and tears in a face,
Thoughts come out,
And hearts destroyed,
The truth comes out,
A love shattered,
A friendship crushed,
A bond gone,
These are my confessions,
Nothing is left for me in this life,
Nothing at all.

No more life story posts since life for me is very short

I think I am going to end my life story here. Perhaps in a few years when I have more things to talk about I will continue it. Sorry, not like any of you actually read it! DON’T LIE TO ME!!!! lol.

Changes in the blog

Deleted a few posts. Nothing new happening in my life :)